Dealing with Anxiety. . . A few years ago, when Will was about 9-10 months old, I was diagnosed with reactive hypoglycemia. Basically my body does not process sugars correctly, so I have had to change the way I eat. After about 9 months of dealing with that, I actually developed anxiety about what I could and couldn't eat. Since being diagnosed with RH I have had a lot of tension pain, which I feel is related. However, while I feel the physical problem makes it easier for my body to feel stress, I don't believe that is the root. I have always been pretty high-strung, type A, whatever you want to call it. I have an EXTREMELY hard time relaxing. I feel like I should be doing something all the time; there is always work to do & I cannot relax if it is not done or I am not controlling everything. . .There is is. The Control Factor. I have a horrible time with feeling out of control, and it has definitely been a struggle in my marriage to Alex.
It's really hard for me to put into concrete words all the issues. I've been happy, but felt stressed out a lot of the time, and like I said, had an extremely hard time relaxing. . . .and I've been paying for it physically with tension pain and TMJ. I really feel that it's been an anxiety issue. But the funny thing is that it hasn't been anxiety over big things. It's not worry either. I don't sit around and worry about our finances, or death, or getting sick, or some terrible thing happening to us. Yet I've been allowing little every day things to stress me out & CONTROL ME. And I have been suffering physically because of it and not enjoying everyday things.
One thing that has helped me immensely has been the ministry of Kirk Martin of Celebrate Calm. I got some CDs of sessions he did at a homeschool convention last summer, then was able to hear him in person in March. I also put aside some money to purchase some of his CDs. I am soooo thankful to his son & business partner Casey, for the BOGO deal he gave me so I could get 2 sets of the CDs. (They are not cheap; he wants you to have to invest in them so you'll use them.)
I would love to be able to take some time to share some of the basic principles from his talks, but that will have to wait till another time. One thing that really stuck with me from one of his sessions was the challenge to identify situations that cause us anxiety and figure out a different way we will react when those things happen. Recently, I actually have started to do that & have really gotten control of a lot of the anxiety I was having. But I knew that I couldn't do this in my own power, I had to base what I was doing on the Word of God so I could rely on His power to help me.
The Bible tell us in II Corinthians 10, "3 For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh: